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We lost another Warrior

I just lit a candle for Michelle..... Then, I read her last entry, from August 2019! She said she was NED! What happened?? I am FLOORED! I never thought I'd see the day. The pillar of strength. I must admit that I hadn't read many of her posts in the past two years. They were always very detailed, and my brain just shuts off ay a certain point. Nevertheless, the first several years after I joined (Feb 2011) every post was read. Stage 4 cancer always has a sort of "cloud" following it around. But people such as Michelle (and a few others here that I "know"), who were /are here; day after day, month after month, year after year, give us all hope. HOPE! That best describes Michele to me. RIP girl... Prayers and thoughts to your family & friends.
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We're floored too .. wondering if it was COVID, which would be just awful - to have fought her cancer the way she did, only to be knocked down by a damn virus. But we don't know what happened. A truly bright and comforting light has been dimmed and the world is a sadder place without her.
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Just so very shocking and sad. She was an inspiration to so many. We may never know what took her away from us, but we will always remember her love for us all, generous sharing of information, and her will to save others from this horrible disease. May she rest in peace.
I did the same thing - went back and read her last post. This was so shocking to hear! I poured through every post when I was diagnosed. I am so saddened, as we all are, to hear this news! She was a true warrior who did so much to further the education of this disease. She will be greatly missed.
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This is very sad news. I exchanged comments with her occasionally both being from KS, both going to MDA for treatment and both being stage IV. She inspired me during times when I was fighting for my life. She will be missed. ๐Ÿ™
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Agree it is important to read and process that final post. She survived well past the expectation for the terrible state of the cancer. What a fighter. She did indeed give us hope.
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So sorry to hear this. She was inspiring! RIP
Yes, I pray for peace for her family and friends.
I found this out from someone on a Facebook group who posted about Michele:

โ€œ A random rupture in the lung caused a very quick death. She was very loved. โ€œ
So itโ€™s still unclear whether it was an AC recurrence, but so sad that something happened quickly and she wasnโ€™t given time to prepare. So sad.
Happy birthday week!
Happy birthday Carol! Hope youโ€™re well and happy.
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Just Saying Hi

HI everyone!

I see that we lost another Warrior. ๐Ÿ˜ฅ

When I read the 'Light A Candle' notification, my first words were, "Oh shit!"...ย  I don't know WHY this is double-spacing, but, Oh well.

I need to start dedicating time to the blog again, to keep better appraised of how my old friends are doing, and to help support the new folks.

ย If some of you remember, we had a couple of young girls who "faked" cancer. As an experienced nurse, my "Her story is fishy" flag was at full mast, but I tried to give benefit of the doubt.ย  Well, it turned out that my nursing experience was spot-on.

We, here, who support one another do it whole-heartedly.ย  It takes energy. And, when a person is going through chemo/rad, all of the appointments, the fatigue (and other symptoms) that last waaaaay beyond en-of -treatment, requires more energy--not to mention trying to go to work every day while all of this is going on.ย  I didn't really have much left.

ย So, I write about this because it saddens me when I read about a relapse or a death and I realize that I need to be less selfish, and more selfLESS. This site and Jill and all of my dear friends here, living AND gone, were and always will be, my forever cancer "rock."

RIP to Sandy, and HUGS and much LOVE, to the rest of you.

Carol P.


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Hi Carol! You at the VA in AZ still! Hope you are well.
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DoD. Ft. Huachuca. SE corner. Yep. Over five years now. Crazy every day.
Thank you!!๐Ÿ˜
So true! Stay strong!!
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Good advice. Reminds me how much support and information I get from BFAC. Important to stay connected.
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Indeed. This-- you all, are among MY best friends!!โค๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’™
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Hi Carol. Glad you are still checking in now and then. I understand the "life gets in the way" thing and don't have as much time to do so either. I hope all is well with you. Take care!
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Thank you Martha. Are you still running? Live & Hugs!!
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Hi Carol. No more running due to bad knees, but walking now. Hope you are doing well! Big hugs!
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Vital Info


February 24, 2011

Sierra Vista, Arizona

July 20, 1962

Cancer Info

Anal Cancer

squamous cell carcinoma of the anus

February 23, 2011

Stage 2

2.1 - 3.0 cm





Difficulty going to the bathroom; telling my kids. Worrying about how to pay for tx. Seeing all the young people here. Chronic stool incontinence..which keeps me from participating in certain exercises and, definately, avoiding group outings.

REALLY be a support for others/fight for my kids

Prayer, listen, feedback.

Orange Juice! (I craved it); steak; homemade vanilla pudding.

Patience, an ear, chocolate . . .

Western Washington Oncology 2011-2012. Switched to VA in 2013, to save $$.

If you have a choice, get a port. Exercise through treatment, if possible. It helps.

Take every day head on. Prayer, whatever, too.

May 19, 2011

October, 2011

No, as of 09/24/2017. However, a sigmoid polyp--1st one, was discovered and removed 06/2015.

Chronological order: Blood-tinged drainage for months, then heavy bleeding with BMs-which I "hoped", for months, would go away. A hard skin tag, change in stool appearance, increased difficulty defecating. PAIN!

I give to various charities: St. Jude's Children's Hospital and Ronald McDonald house,cancer charities; multiple fund-raisers. I am too tired and lazy to organize a fund-raiser. Mostly, my emotions are shot. Gone. Just...gone.


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